Remember the Reason for the Season

It’s Christmas Eve today, and like most homes at this time of year, we have had our Christmas tree up for awhile. The colourful lights glowing, decorations hanging, and the angel watching over everything. The top section of our artificial tree is leaning some, because the part it’s stuck into has a piece broken off…

Dear Younger Me…

Dear Younger Me, You are beautiful. You are stronger than you think. And, don’t let anyone tell you differently. And don’t believe that you aren’t.  You ARE enough! The world is going to tell you that you have to be pencil-thin and have the latest fashions in style and the right hairstyle and makeup. They…

If I Wasn’t On My Medication…

When depression has its nasty claws embedded deep into my very soul, it sucks the life right out of me. It leaves me not willing, or able, to enjoy anything, and it won’t let me do what I want. I have a few hobbies that I really enjoy – knitting, spinning yarn, reading and some…

A Little R&R

I’m like most people – I enjoy having vacation. That’s what I’ve been doing the past four days. I still have three and a half more days before going back to work.  I’ve been enjoying this time because I’ve been able to get a lot of R&R in; something I need to do. We’ve been…

It’s What’s Been On My Mind Lately

Grief is something we have all experienced in some way or another. And if you haven’t, give it time and you will.  Maybe it’s the loss of a parent, a spouse, child, friend. Maybe it’s the loss of a job, the use of part of your body and that’s what you are or have been…

I’m Learning To Thank God For This

I’ve been taking my anti-depressant for nearly three months now. And I will say, they are really helping.  I don’t want to have to take this medication, but I know I have to. As a Christian, I have gone back and forth in whether or not I believe that I should take antidepressants or just…

In A Much Better Place

These past eleven days I have been on vacation. A much-needed vacation. A much welcomed vacation.  A wonderful time spent with my husband (and a day that included my step-son). Because of my depression and anxiety, working on average of 45-50 hours per week, and being involved in a few ministries at church, I ended up…

Today Was A Better Day

The bulk of this week was not great for me. Not only have I been dealing with my depression and anxiety, but Sunday afternoon family members shared some terrible news with us. It devastated me. And I found myself spiralling downward quickly. Both Monday and Tuesday I had what I can only describe as breakdowns while…

I Caught A Glimpse of the Light…

My husband tells me it will get better, that right now I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I will.  He tells me it’s still there, hiding beneath the grey clouds that loom over me on what seems like a daily basis. I catch glimmers of that light, now and…

It’s Difficult

As I write this, I feel overwhelmed and feel the need to catch my breath. I’m not winded, I haven’t been doing anything physical to cause it. And, really, I can breathe fine; it’s just a sensation. It’s hard to describe, and I guess the closest I can get to that is to say that…